I have written probably 20-30 posts, and then deleted all of them. I wrote some, deleted those, wrote some more, deleted again. And now I simply have the first post. I need to stop doing that. But in a funny way it reflects largely how I feel at the moment, how I have felt the last year or two. Trying to figure out what direction I want to go in, but I cant decide. I feel like there has to be something else there, something to help me decide, but I don’t know what it is or where to find it. I do have time though, and in some ways it is hard to have time to figure it all out. I just want it to be figured out already. It’s hard to sit still when you know you have to. But I need time. I need this time, maybe a year, maybe two. But despite knowing that, it doesn’t make the waiting any easier.



About philosophicalwaste

Girl in her late 20s (is 27 late?). This blog is where writings go for the moment, still trying to figure out how to organize my thoughts. I much prefer to write by hand, it just seems right handwritten. But it takes much too long and I will write lazier to just sum things up and I dont want to feel restricted. I would love to get a type writer soon. Im also considering getting a digital audio recorder, but I fear I would always carry it around and get into the habit of just recording my thoughts as I walk around in public wondering what the hell Im doing.
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