I have written probably 20-30 posts, and then deleted all of them. I wrote some, deleted those, wrote some more, deleted again. And now I simply have the first post. I need to stop doing that. But in a funny way it reflects largely how I feel at the moment, how I have felt the last year or two. Trying to figure out what direction I want to go in, but I cant decide. I feel like there has to be something else there, something to help me decide, but I don’t know what it is or where to find it. I do have time though, and in some ways it is hard to have time to figure it all out. I just want it to be figured out already. It’s hard to sit still when you know you have to. But I need time. I need this time, maybe a year, maybe two. But despite knowing that, it doesn’t make the waiting any easier.